Does He Know?

Does he know the pain I feel, that my legs feel like lead, that's it's hard to get up and push myself to do anything because I'm longing for my children, that money is so tight that I don't know how I am going to make it each day, that he destroyed me financially, emotionally, that he took the glow that I once had and turned it into darkness, that he took my soul when he lied and manipulated me to take my children.  Does he care? I doubt it...

Does he know how hard it is to get a job after being a stay at home mom for 8 years in this economy?  This is my biggest battle because without a job I can't travel to see my children due to not having money.  My kids will tell me what they want for Christmas and my heart sinks.  Martin once told me; these are actually his mother's words because she once told me this about one of her ex son in-laws, "It's hard on a man when he's out of work", well Martin that works both ways.

Does he know that I am doing the best I can to re-establish my life? Does he care? I believe he is just happy that he accomplished his goal to keep me distanced from my children, but does he know that he's hurting them as well? Does he care?