At 4 am I ask for my epidural again and she still says "no". I ask to see the doctor so I can be checked. I'm not quite 5 centimeters dilated but the doctor says to go ahead and call in the anesthesiologist and let me have an epidural. It takes him almost an hour to put the needle in my back and he's telling me to relax! Please!!!! I doubt he knows what labor pains feel like. I wanted to tell him a few things but I stayed quite. Finally he gets the needle in my back I feel relief.
This is the song I listened to well I was in labor. I dedicate this song to my children until this day:
By LeAnne Womack
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
Dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone)
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
Dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone)
It's almost 6:30am and I want to be checked again. My nurse is telling me it's not a good idea because the chance of infection. But she decides to check me and after checking me tells me not to move or push because I'm crowning. The doctor gets there and after 15 hours of labor and 15 pushes I deliver a healthy 5lb 11oz baby boy born at 7:02am. He is so healthy and screaming. That was music to my ears. Martin and I are both crying from happiness and relief.
If our son was not conceived through In Vitro they would have challenged his gestational age. He was practically crawling. The NICU doctors were in the room for delivery because he was a wee bit premature. After they looked him over they handed him to me.
I couldn't have done this with out my wonderful friend/almost mom; Paula. I love you Paula and of course my husband at the time.
Well as you can tell I survived because I'm sharing this with you :).
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